Maybe 9:30pm isn’t late for you. Maybe you go to bed in the really wee hours of the morning, somewhere 2am onwards. Me? 10pm is pushing my limits these days. Last night I was up until midnight and I didn’t know what hit me. What happened to my early twenties, when I could pull all-nighters and enjoy the next day? Haha, I NEVER thought I’d be thinking these things, much less typing them 🙂 In the past, I didn’t take naps, they were for the weak. I liked to stay up late and get up early to do as much as I could with my waking hours. These days? To sleep past 7am is absolute heaven. My wonderful husband will often allow me to sleep until about 7:15am while he minds our Bunny.
Usually evenings are my painting time. It just doesn’t happen during the day anymore. Dinner needs to get put on the table, I have a child to feed (which is starting to take a lot more time since we’re starting to work on eating finger foods, so I’m not in charge anymore!) and play with, and I have to look presentable too! (Side note, this new years resolution is going quite well actually – make-up is not worn too often since I don’t feel I’m in need of it, but it does get dragged out every once in awhile!) The problem is, my Bunny’s bedtime is probably the most stressful time of my day since there is no set time that it happens, and sometimes there are evening wake-ups that last up to two hours. I cannot paint when I’m frustrated, it’s just NOT possible. I’ve tried, and my heart just isn’t in it. I have to want to paint. It is obvious when a finished piece hasn’t been finished out of love, but out of habit and obligation. It doesn’t have the same sparkle, or pop, if those words could be used. They feel drab, not quite as happy as a wobble painting should feel. So, usually when I’m not in the mood, I don’t paint. There are times when there are deadlines that have to be met, but with a deadline comes a certain type of excitement, because you have the reason for the deadline in the first place. Did that make sense?! I hope so. I have a deadline I’m toying with right now: Art in the Park this year. I don’t know if I’m going to go for it or not. I haven’t finished nearly as many paintings in the last two months as I had hoped I would, I know that if I signed up I’d be stressed about having enough new ones to show and having to paint more often. Andres thinks it might be a wise decision to pass this year because then I wouldn’t be a yearly thing that people would come to expect. Maybe waiting a year would heighten people’s interest in my work. I don’t know. I’ll keep you updated on this.
In any case, I did get some more work done on my current playground piece. It’s starting to come together, if I may say so, and I’m liking how it is turning out. It’s looking just like my concept piece! (how often does that happen?!)
Have a good weekend everyone! If you’re in Kamloops, stay warm!