Haha, you might be looking at the title of my post and then down at the picture and thinking, Cindy, that doesn’t really match! I know, but this is another one of my teacher wobble paintings, and it was the closest to “helping students” that I had … so enjoy the picture whether or not it fits with my post. 🙂
*Wow, It’s already Wednesday …
Generally speaking, I try and keep this an art blog. There have of course been times where pregnancy, birth, and consequently (!) my daughter, or personal issues come into my writing, I don’t really see a way around it! Art is part of my life, and so are the other things I have just mentioned. They’re bound to intermingle at least once in awhile! There is a big decision coming up in my life that will directly affect my art making: Going back to work, or staying home.
I see this decision in many ways, but since this IS an art blog, I’ll present it to you from that perspective. Art making is my favourite hobby. If I could, I would paint every day. However, there is a catch: I NEED a certain amount of time to feel it’s worth it to get all my stuff out, set up, paint, and then put away. I have always felt that 40 min is the minimum amount of time I need available to go for it. Also, as I’ve written about in previous posts, I can’t paint well if I’m stressed in any way. That means that if I have to vaccuum, keep a baby happy, make dinner, plus fold laundry, painting probably will not happen. It is one of my priorities, but the above mentioned things would be on my mind. I would be wondering when they would get done, and continue to think about them. The more I thought about the other things on my list, the more anxious I would be about finishing them as well. In the end, I probably would end up not wanting to paint because although my art is a priority, it is a frivolous activity, while the other ones do need to get accomplished (well some of them! Vacuuming can always wait! Come to think of it, so can laundry 🙂 Dinner on the other hand, can’t) . Scenarios such as the above happen now, while I’m on maternity leave. I can’t imagine those stresses getting any less if I return to work. You??
So, you may be thinking, well … um … maybe your decision is pretty obvious. You don’t have to go back to work. (It’s true, Andres and I are very blessed to have the choice for me to go back to work or not) The thing is, I love my job! Teaching is such a great profession, and it’s something I have ALWAYS wanted to do. I never had any other career dreams as a kid that I can think of … well, there was one other one: I wanted to work at Disney animation studios but they went digital and I was into classical animation, so that dream was crushed! Anyways, to boot, if I was to go back to work, the more seniority I would accrue, which would mean more opportunities to find an art position.
Now, wait a minute you say, if you could teach art, wouldn’t that make your previous argument obsolete? NO. Teaching art, although wonderful and awesome, is very different than personal art making. I am helping others to explore using paint, collage, mixed media and the like. Often I get to demo, but I don’t get to get down and dirty with the materials. I am there to help the students. This means that I am around art, but not making art. (I could talk a lot about how much teaching art is, but that is probably for a different post)
So, what do I do?? Stay home to make my own art (albeit here and there) or go back to work in order that I MIGHT find an art position where I can help others with their art? Hmmm … what a hard decision.
So, here I am thinking and wondering.